Wednesday, December 31, 2003
How does it feel waking up to a great disastrous morning with dusts making you sneeze you just can't help but involuntarily bring yourself into tears, and your roommates' voices ranging up to a great intensity you just can't stand? Hell. It feels like hell.
I woke up from a great slumber and I still have some of the good old katzenjammer I had at last night's party. I am very exhausted aside from being so full from the acronychal wassail at my friend's 18th birthday. I woke up in a not so attractive view and in a discordant noise that seemed to be like a daybreak nightmare. I am having some morning sickness and the noise only made it worse. The saying: "Lokohin mo na ang lasing huwag lang yung bagong gising…" is very much true.
It is a very frustrating experience when you try your best to smile the first thing in the morning and cooperate in the household chores and yet there are those people who welcome you with their patented loudmouth and certified gruesome attitudes. Sigh, this is the last day of the year and tomorrow is going to be a new year. Is this a good way to end a year? Of course, I can handle situations like these that instead of hearing deafening fireworks and be aghast by the view of a new sunrise; all I can hear is their earsplitting vocal chords.
For as long as I can remember, I never ended a year without having to go through this turmoil lurking inside the house. It's a not a good idea to say a "home" because a home is more like a haven for me than what we people usually know as house. I live in a home and in a house simultaneously. How is that possible? It is possible. What a life. As the song goes, taken from Stacie Orrico's: "There's gonna be more to life than chasing down every temporary high…" What would be a good prospect for chasing this 2004?
I just hope that the year 2004 will create and bring me something I have never experienced before. I just wanted to feel loved and I want to know how to love and forgive in return. I am so exhausted with these experiences every year and my soul literally suffers from within. It is very excruciating inside. Very frustrating indeed, when I try my best to be happy and yet there are those people who hinder me in attaining my heart's desires. I just pray that this year, 2004, I will bump into someone or something that will add-up and comprehend the missing piece of my life's puzzling puzzle.
-kuja alexandros-
11:59 PM