Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Last night was a total blast. I was doing my nightly routine of surfing, mp3, and everything in between when my phone beeped, destroying the silence that I am enjoying. A friend sent something really weird that really caught my attention. I hastily replied, then she also did. And before we knew it, we found ourselves arguing. She is accusing me of being so insensitive. The heck!!! I am!!! Well, not very much though... I am if i want to. People around me are beginning to act weird lately as if they have issues, well, everyone has. I want people who are honest, brave enough to tell it to my face what went wrong. I "kinda" value honesty, i don't wanna be a hypocrite if I say that I do value honesty to its fullness. Sometimes we have to be honest, and sometimes the other way around. I already asked for forgiveness and yet she didn't even make an effort to make me understand her situation. I pitty her for acting in such a way, she was like a brat and i'm totally pissed off. She was an open-book by the time, but presently, she isn't anymore. I wonder who made her the way she is right now. I don't wanna judge the people who are with her currently. I am fair enough to look at her as an individual who is mature enough to deal with attitude problems (which everyone of us have). I sounded "pikon" last night but to tell you honestly, I am not that agitated. I had a goodnight sleep, and i woke up just fine. I've done my part of saying the "word", but she's just not ready to accept it. Well, maybe she is but something is holding her from doing so. Maybe it's the thrill of having a fight with the person you never ever expected to have a fight with in this lifetime (which is totally impossible for a normal social being like us). Imagine yourself in my shoes, someone told you,"kung pwede lng tika dli i-text ba, dli na jud". What the f***? Why of all the people? She was the one i never expected to have a fight with. I'm ready, but i totally am not entertaining the thought that we will be losing our friendship beacuse of this silly crap, oh, and she said it was a big deal for her. I think she was blanked out that there are always two sides of a coin... if you know what i mean... I never really told her my side, it's because she is not yet ready to listen (base on my observation)... Oh well, let's just see the series of events that will be taking place for the next few days.... and oh, i sent my barkada an SMS last night, saying sorry... I dunno what made me do it, but it's a good feeling though... you know what??? Saying sorry is sometimes the sweetest thing to say than the overheard redundancy of the cliche "i love you"...
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